It Hurts

It Hurts

by Jenny Chan

As I see you walk your way
Towards me, you smile and say hey
But is it to me? No.
You’ve found a new girl
To ruin my world
Is she pretty, smart like me?
If you could only see

That it hurts inside my heart
What you do to her, it just tears me apart
It hurts when I see you holding hands with her
Hold me if you can, my dear
I wish that you’d just see
That deep inside of me
It hurts

Is she worth is, to tear me to bits?
I try to be happy, but I can’t
Because every time I see her, you’re hers
Would you rather she be me?
Do you feel the same way?
Or is it relaly her that you can see?

It hurts inside my heart
It’s what you do to her that tears me apart
It hurts when I see you holding hands with her
Hold me if you can, my dear
Why can’t you see
That deep inside of me
It hurts
Oh, it hurts so badly

Every day, every night, youre all that I can think about
When I see you with her, I just want to shout
Why me, why me? Why her and not me?
Everywhere I look, people holding hands
You’ll never ask me to the dance
Am I invisible to you?
Is she the only one that you see?

Don’t you see that it hurts inside of me?
When I see you with her, can’t you see
What you do to her, you never did to me
You make her laugh, you make her cry
You never did that to me, I could just die
Crazy in love, or is this a joke
If you knew, you would never do this to me

Just go. I never want to see you again. I never want to talk to you again. I hate you for doing this to me.

You love her, you tease her, you make her smile
Never seen you do those things in a while
I wished you could only see
How much it hurts and burns
Inside of me

Traditional vs. Online Schooling (Scholarship Contest)

     A teacher, a desk, and a chair: these are the components of a traditional learning environment. A webcam, a computer, and a keyboard: these are seen in the online course. Online and traditional schooling differ in many ways. However, traditional schooling is better for both students and teachers. The environment and interactions in traditional schooling allow students to focus more on the subject rather than other matters.
     Traditional schooling allows students to have a better environment when they are learning new subjects. The environment in traditional schooling mimics that of a real class setting; it also allows students to have better interactions with one another than online. For example, when doing a discussion, it is better hold a discussion in the classroom when the students can talk face to face about issues. However, online, students talk face to face in a webinar. In addition, when students talk face to face, they can build more connections with other people better than on an online chat. In addition, in a classroom, students can ask the teachers questions by raising their hand or staying after class; conversely, online, students have fewer opportunities to do that because they may not be as focused. Therefore, traditional schooling offers a better learning environment that an online course.
     Traditional schooling allows students to focus solely on the subject and not on other matters. Teachers can teach their lessons better and students can learn better because the environment is directed to the subject. However, in an online class, students get distracted more easily. Since they are talking via computer, they have the tendency to go online and divert their attentions to addicting sites, such as FaceBook. By doing so, students don’t motivate themselves as much as in a traditional setting. In the classroom, students are more likely to do their work because the teacher is watching them. For example, some teachers in my school collect cell phones in the beginning of class to lessen the inclination of their students to digress to do other things. With that, students can learn better in class than online because they have the opportunity to concentrate on that task without sidetracking their attention too much.
     Traditional schooling is better than online schooling because it students can have a better learning environment and focus better. It allows the teacher to teach better and the students to learn more and better.

WHY?!?

So I just found out that there’s a new girl in my Chinese class. A FOB-by new girl. That new girl just so happens to be that girl. You know who I’m talking about. His GF. If it weren’t for her, I’d still have a chance with him. But ever since she came along, it all went downhill. I feel like I’m Sharpay in HSM and he’s Troy and she’s Gabriella.  The joys of Disney! Except that I’m not that beotchy about it. Now, I feel like I wanna go die in a hole every time I’m in Chinese class. Last year, it was Irene and Ken. This year it’s Mr. and Ms. FOB. Oh well, next year, it’s all gonna be gone cuz I’m off to college! I’ll just suck it up for a year then.

It Really Hurts

So, I found about that yesterday, and today felt like the longest day ever. I couldn’t even look at him in the class that we have together. And even worse, he put his arm around his new GF and was facing me. Why would someone do that? To make others jealous?? I hope I won’t be this sad later on. During lunch, he wasn’t in the cafeteria  , but his GF was. GRR…

The truth really hurts. No, LOVE HURTS.

I hope I can get over it sometime.

I need to. I’m going to college next year, so that’s good. At least I won’t have to deal with him anymore. Unless he shows up at the same college two years later. That’d be awkward…

We Both Liked Each Other

I don't understand. Why does he like her? Is she that pretty? To me, no. All I say say is, she has a big mouth. She's cute, but not pretty. Maybe I am too. BUT WHY DOESN"T HE LIKE ME? That's what I see. I dunno if he's too blind to see that. Not a big mouth as in she talks a lot, but literally a BIG MOUTH. 

I know he liked me since his freshmen year. It all started in Chinese class. We were both in Chinese 3/4 Honors, and he just wouldn't stop staring at me. I was like, "What a creeper." I didn't really mind, because I didn't like him then. 

Fast forward to next year, my junior year and his sophomore year. I started to like him because I thought he was kinda cute. AND I KNOW HE LIKED ME. He would get all quiet around me. My Chinese teacher thinks I'm her TA instead of her student, so she makes me check binders and pass out homework. When it was his turn, I had to check his binder and he got all weird around me. Even worse, he was in my P.E. class, and during the swimming unit, he would always stare at me (I wore a two-piece because my one-piece was too small for me). And when I stood next to him for swimming drills, he would get all weird. And, I TA'd for my Chemistry teacher and it was a 3rd period Honors Physics class that I TA'd for. And guess what? He was in that class! Not that I cared, but since I sat in the back at the lab tables, he would always come by the table and walk past me and get as close to me as possible. It was really awkward. Then my senior year comes (woot! woot!) and it's all fun and games until Gabriella shows up. That's not her name, but it's an allusion to High School Musical. 

Hello there!

So, I've decided to stop posting facts within a message cause it got kinda old..

SO!

I’m just gonna blog when I have extra time in my hands. This might sound weird since I’m a senior in high school, but I’m going through a tough time right now.

The guy I liked just got a girlfriend, so yeah…

I don’t think he’s swag enough to find that I created this Blog about him.

(Well, sorta…)