Not Fair

Okay, so now it's illegal for teachers to force students to buy books right>

If so, my math teacher told us,"You have to go and buy the [Practice Exam] book."

Doesn't that make it illegal for teachers to say that?

So can I sue her for saying that?

And yes, I hate my math teacher. She's horrible.

Pissed Off

You know what really pisses me off?

I'm going to college next fall, and college requires placement tests.
Just when I think no more SAT/ACT-type tests. BAM! Another one comes along the way.

So, I applied to a lot of Cal States and UCs.
For me, I don't need to take the Cal State placement tests, Yay me!
But....
I do need to take the placement tests for the UCs. Fuck.
But that's not what pisses me off the most.

THEIR REQUIREMENTS.
They need: 680 SAT Writing, 30 ACT English
I got: 670 SAT Writing, 29 ACT English

Do you know how mad I am????
I'm so freaking pissed!!!!!!!!!
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So freaking mad!!!!!!
It's literally like one freaking question for that one point.

I really wanna petition to have a +/- 10 point difference SAT, +/- 1 point for the ACT,
Like in my case, i got a 670 instead of a 680. If there were a 10 point difference, I wouldn't have to take it. :)
Same thing goes for the ACT.

But...

GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHKJFUIL:KLHLKHLKH!!!!!!
@#$%*!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! SO FREAKING MADDDDD!!!!

Remember Me?

Remember Me
09.07.09

i was the girl who never talked
and always knew the wrong ways to walk
rarely late to clssS
and always wondering who that was
never rode The school bus, always in a fuss
i was always hurrying tO get to class
on time, it's not about the sass
why do i feel so?

chorus
do you remember me?
the girl who
you hated, loved, Picked on every time
you never Talk to me, oh that's fine
i always obsEssed with this and that
you never liked me, you'd Always want to bite me
i was always in one Spot, never really talked to others
never tried out for the play, dIdn't have the guts
do you remember me Now?

never had best friends, didn't talk to me much
everyone i encounter Gives me a weird touch
why is it always Me?
i'm always left out in your dreams
You and your friends go out and form your clique
where do i fit in, am I just someone who used to be in your class?

repeat chorus

the girl in the clouds wants to come out
and show people who she really is
i'm not just a girl from your chemistry class
the girl who sits next to you has changed
she is afraid of being in the dark
to come out and show who you are
thinking your ways may not have been your best ways

chorus
do you remember me?
not some random girl from your class,
but me as i really am, not who you think of me
being used to hate me, pick on mE
time to think twice before you see
me as i am and nothing else
not about what everyone thinks

Do you remember me?
I was the forgotten girl
Now I'm about to take over the world

Why?

Why?
07.27.09

Oh, I’m just an average girl
Growing up in a big big world
Wish I could just hide if away and smile
I’m just a girl
Wish I could know about the whole world
Living in a big twirl
Oh, why, why, why?

Chorus
Why can’t I learn about everything?
Form growing up to all the bling
Why can’t I learn how people are?
From making money to becoming great big stars?
Why, why, why? Just tell me why
Why cant I be questioning
How people come from being the next big thing
To becoming who they are, these this work of art
Why, why, why? Just tell me why

I go places I shouldn’t have gone
From going to movies to coming back at the break of dawn
I know, I know I was slow
I was late to class ‘most every day
Is this work and no play?
Just an average day for me

Repeat Chorus
Why can’t I just take a part
In everything from the start
I dunno why, just weird being me
I was fifteen when suddenly
I wasn’t that middle school girl anymore
I’m starting high school, a whole new world
For me, it’s still like you’re the little one in the crowd
Oh, why, why, why?

Chorus
Why can’t I learn everything?
From being cool to all those crazy things
Surrounding me, all though me
Why can’t I just take some pride
In my work and in my life?
Oh, why, why, why?

I’m not gonna know if you won’t understand
Me the way I am and nothing else
Oh, why, why, why?
I’m not gonna show if you don’t tell
That you know about me, and ring the bell
Just tell me

Fourteen

I wrote this around the same time that Taylor Swift’s Fifteen came out. 

Fourteen
05.24.09

It’s the last year at middle school
Some people, some people just wanna be cool
Just soy back and relax, ditching school
Not a smart move
I wanna get good grades, be good till the end
I wanna graduate and stay and be friends
A lot of things going on

Chorus
When you’re fourteen, you dunno what to do
When you’re fourteen, so many things to do in school
Theres graduation, school dances, cutting in line, disobeying
Taking the lead in everything, so it seems
There are so many things to worry about
Getting good grades to graduate
(sigh) Who am I?

I’ve got friends till the end
Some just faded away
School events, I don’t participate
Just the promotion party
What to wear?
Dressy casual.
I look in the closet
Rummaged through NY clothes, made a ruckus
I go shopping for clothes, go to the mall
To see if there is anything at all

Repeat Chorus

I’m an average teenager
Trying to find her my way in this crazy world
Trying my best to get good grades
Working hard, sometimes till eight
I don’t know how
Some people go out and rom about
And still do well in school
But when you’re fourteen, you don’t really know what to do
When you’re fourteen, don’t forget
That it mau be your last year with all your friends

I’ve learnt so much that I may explode
Taking tests, what a load

Chorus
When you’re fourteen, and you don’t know what to do
With your friends, guy problems
At fourteen
Practicing for graduation, so tiring
Just get it over with
Saying goodbye to all your friends
You won’t see them for a year
When you’re fourteen

Real Me

I found this in my computer. Kinda old.

Real Me
Jenny Chan
05.10.09

There are different girls
Living in different worlds
And there’s always different mes
There’s a school me, a rocker me, a queen bee
A wannabe, an actor me, a singer me,
But the real me is very different

Chorus
The real me is who I am
It’s all I can be
Living a life, that’s work, work, work
Having a dream, that’s sing, sing, sing
I’m just like all of my friends
Who love music
But I’m a different me in a way

I try to enter the contests in a magazine
But I never tend to win
I’ve tried to call in to Radio Disney
To request a song
But was never on air
The real me wants to meet my idols
The people I love
Jonas, Miley, Demi, and Selena
So many, yet I’ve never
Been to any concert
Wish I could
That I can’t
Cuz

Repeat Chorus

The real me wants to hang out
After school, but no
I gotta work, work, work
And study, study, study
Hey!
Can’t get my free time
To do what I want?
No cable, watching all the shows on YouTube
As if I could do all of that in a matter of hours
And do all that and Twitter and Facebook too
So much to do

Chorus
The real me is who I am, who I should be
Um caught in a major dilemma
Don’t know what to do
Wanna be the real me, and still wanna be the me who I wanted to be

I am different, yes I am
I can be myself that I am
Th one that I can be
The real me
I just want to be me
The me that I was born with
The me that made me who I am today
The real me

Different Me

I just found this in my computer. I wrote this a few years ago, so it's not that great. Enjoy! :)

Different Me
04.20.09

At school, I study hard, get good grades and take a part
Of whatever club I wanna be in
But at home I sing,
Sing my heart out
And live like a rockstar

Chorus
I rock out, I stay out
I'm a different kind of person
I'm stuck at school which is like prison
But I'm a different me at home
I'm living on my own
Don't wanna be bossed around
Wanna do whatever I want

When I'm all alone
I'm stuck at home
Doing whatever work I have
Why is it me?
I can't
Go to parties, and stay out, do whatever I wanna
But why?
I just wanna be myself

Repeat Chorus

I gotta be good
To stay in school
I listen to takeovers, exclusives
Special Acoustics
But I'm a different me at home
When I'm all alone
I go online
The computer's all mine
On the weekends
But studying, it never ends, it never ends
Every day I practice
Singing, just like this

Chorus
I wanna rock out, stay out
And never have a bedtime
I wanna be like a rockstar
I'm just a different me at home
Alone, in my room
I'm a different kinda girl
I'm a different me

I wish I could have my own
Laptop and phone
Instead, I go to summer school
While everyone else plays in the pool
Getting up at seven A.M.
Just wanting to play with all of them
Wish I could just stop
This mess and make it to the top
I'm just a different me on the outside
But inside I'm still the same
An average teenage girl
Living in a crazy world
Feels so hard to stay in school
Don't hafta be cool
Just study, study, study
It never ends, never ends
I wanna be awesome
And have some fun
Just scream and shout everyone!
We're gonna have some fun
I'm a different me, don't you see?
Living in two different worlds
Having fun, and SHOUT!