Super confusing.

Update on the "Guys are so confusing" post.

So that same co-worker IM'd me today (I'm usually the one IMing him to remind him of certain things) asking if he could help on anything. After a while, a bunch of people bombarded me with all sorts of requests, and because today was a super slow day, I had him input and verify some of my the incoming wires, which is my primary job. And long story short, I end up telling him how to do everything since he hasn't really done it since I last taught him, which was a long time ago. And then I ask him to do an extra few steps, which he then says, "Want me to wax your car with it?" or something like that and I ignore him for a while, since I was busy. And then he says something like the wise ass response was supposed to be yes, and dress my tires as well. Like I'm supposed to know that. And then sarcastically, I say "Yes please, and clean my room and make me food as well" sarcastically. And surprisingly, he replies something like "If that's your way of asking me out, I'm cool with it. But just know I go big." Something like that. I wasn't expecting that.
And then he got annoyed at me because I forgot something, but then I found out he was mistaken. Whew.

Sidenote, my manager just came back from vacation and he used to work at this one company so he has connections, so we all got new keyboards. I'm a pretty tall person. More on that my third grade story later. And when tall people try to fit under a table, it ain't the cutest thing in the world. Bumps here and there, it's pretty tiring. Believe me, I know. So I'm trying to unplug my old keyboard and install my new keyboard in the computer, and I bump here and there, fall a few times, and finally get the thing to work. He then asks if I'm good, okay, that sort of language at least three times. Yeah, it was painfully tiring (literally).

So then we have this competition between a few of our company's teams. Our team didn't end up winning, but that's beside the point. Since he's usually the first one to get here, he left around 5 PM, and got changed (according to him) and came back to see the competition. This is the part it gets a bit cringey.

So he comes to the event in like jeans and a button up and converse. Lucky. But hey, I don't really want to get up at 6 AM and go to work at 7 AM. Anyways, I'm like in a group almost with my co-workers and he and my manager (who also happens to arrive at the same time) walk up and say hi. He then stands next to me and my other co-worker, and while my other co-worker gets food, we kinda just stand there really awkwardly cuz we don't know what to say to each other.

A few minutes pass by and I really don't wanna finish my ice cream (it was too sweet) and I didn't like the gummy worms in it, so I asked if he wanted it, since he tends to snack on sour straws a lot. At first he wanted it, but I guess he thinks he might be allergic to strawberry (there was strawberry ice cream on the bottom). That was probably the only conversation we had the entire time.

Guys are so confusing

Need I say more? Girls, you know what's up.

So, I broke up with my boyfriend of 5 years. More on that in a future post. So yes, I'm single again. I kinda miss being single and doing whatever you want whenever you want. All four years of college, I basically did everything with my ex-boyfriend and ended up not really enjoying life to the fullest. Life is short, so you know, YOLO.

Anyways, what I wanted to talk about was that guys. Are fricking confusing. They do one thing, and it means this, and then they go ahead and forget that they even did it and leave you hanging. Like what?!

So there's this guy at work who I think has a crush on me since I think he thinks that I like him because I always help him look out for emails that gets sent to our group inbox.

We have two inboxes we need to manage, our team inbox and our personal inbox. We don't always have time to manage two inboxes along with all of our daily work that also needs to get done. We also use Skype (Lync) to communicate with each other.

Back to the story. So I usually will help him out with managing some of the emails that we get, and we get A LOT of email flooded to our team inbox, some of which we're just copied for some odd reason. So I'll usually Skype message him certain emails or things that he needs to look out for, since we all miss an email or two sometimes. So I guess he thought that by me looking out for some of the emails and tasks that it meant that I might have liked him? Oh, and he also joined a few months after I "officially" started. So I guess we're like the two newbies.

So one day, I message him something, I forget what it was, but I think that day, it was a really slow day, and I was sending him emoticons (yes, not emojis) instead of replying cos I find that easier sometimes, depending on the situation.

So then he replies something like "You're really cute and all, but I don't speak smiley!" in which I read after I had send the (headbang) emoticon, so I guess I was confusing him cos after that he said that I was confusing him.

That same day, he got annoyed because everything that could have gone wrong, WENT WRONG. To add onto that, our manager was on vacation, and we couldn't get a hold of him, so everything just went berserk.

We're also a bit short-staffed, so whenever he takes lunch, my co-worker and I have to pitch in to handle his work for an hour or so. Apparently, one of us didn't keep an eye on certain things, and he got annoyed. Again.

"I don't know if I mentioned this, but when you guys are covering for me, could you please ...?" in which I answered a simple, "Sure." I was also fed up with all of that day's work.

Confidential information I'm not allowed to share. It's a regulatory thing.

So the same day, a few hours later, I'm done with MOST of my work and offered to help out on some of his work. And then I guess he wants me to add something, so I do, and ask my supervisor to help out. Meanwhile, I finished part of what he handed me, and he also happens to come over and put his elbow on my head. "...I'm just putting my elbow on your head" As if that's normal between co-workers. I just brush it off.

Before I say anything else, I also want to say, he asks me to print some stuff for him sometimes, since he doesn't have the application to do so. One time, he said, "Jenny, my favourite person in the world," which I just brushed off, since I think the 3 other people who do have access to the same application couldn't be bothered to help him with a small request.

I also want to add, he usually is listening to music most of the time.

The next day, I didn't see him listen to any kind of music. he also happened to be wearing the same colour as I did that day, which I found a bit odd. Whatever, maybe that's just me.

TL;DR
Guys are so confusing. They do one thing and it makes you assume something and then they do the opposite and you're like what?

Not Fair

Okay, so now it's illegal for teachers to force students to buy books right>

If so, my math teacher told us,"You have to go and buy the [Practice Exam] book."

Doesn't that make it illegal for teachers to say that?

So can I sue her for saying that?

And yes, I hate my math teacher. She's horrible.

Pissed Off

You know what really pisses me off?

I'm going to college next fall, and college requires placement tests.
Just when I think no more SAT/ACT-type tests. BAM! Another one comes along the way.

So, I applied to a lot of Cal States and UCs.
For me, I don't need to take the Cal State placement tests, Yay me!
But....
I do need to take the placement tests for the UCs. Fuck.
But that's not what pisses me off the most.

THEIR REQUIREMENTS.
They need: 680 SAT Writing, 30 ACT English
I got: 670 SAT Writing, 29 ACT English

Do you know how mad I am????
I'm so freaking pissed!!!!!!!!!
asdfghjkl;fdsklahgkdfjasflkk >:((((((

So freaking mad!!!!!!
It's literally like one freaking question for that one point.

I really wanna petition to have a +/- 10 point difference SAT, +/- 1 point for the ACT,
Like in my case, i got a 670 instead of a 680. If there were a 10 point difference, I wouldn't have to take it. :)
Same thing goes for the ACT.

But...

GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHKJFUIL:KLHLKHLKH!!!!!!
@#$%*!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! SO FREAKING MADDDDD!!!!

Remember Me?

Remember Me
09.07.09

i was the girl who never talked
and always knew the wrong ways to walk
rarely late to clssS
and always wondering who that was
never rode The school bus, always in a fuss
i was always hurrying tO get to class
on time, it's not about the sass
why do i feel so?

chorus
do you remember me?
the girl who
you hated, loved, Picked on every time
you never Talk to me, oh that's fine
i always obsEssed with this and that
you never liked me, you'd Always want to bite me
i was always in one Spot, never really talked to others
never tried out for the play, dIdn't have the guts
do you remember me Now?

never had best friends, didn't talk to me much
everyone i encounter Gives me a weird touch
why is it always Me?
i'm always left out in your dreams
You and your friends go out and form your clique
where do i fit in, am I just someone who used to be in your class?

repeat chorus

the girl in the clouds wants to come out
and show people who she really is
i'm not just a girl from your chemistry class
the girl who sits next to you has changed
she is afraid of being in the dark
to come out and show who you are
thinking your ways may not have been your best ways

chorus
do you remember me?
not some random girl from your class,
but me as i really am, not who you think of me
being used to hate me, pick on mE
time to think twice before you see
me as i am and nothing else
not about what everyone thinks

Do you remember me?
I was the forgotten girl
Now I'm about to take over the world

Why?

Why?
07.27.09

Oh, I’m just an average girl
Growing up in a big big world
Wish I could just hide if away and smile
I’m just a girl
Wish I could know about the whole world
Living in a big twirl
Oh, why, why, why?

Chorus
Why can’t I learn about everything?
Form growing up to all the bling
Why can’t I learn how people are?
From making money to becoming great big stars?
Why, why, why? Just tell me why
Why cant I be questioning
How people come from being the next big thing
To becoming who they are, these this work of art
Why, why, why? Just tell me why

I go places I shouldn’t have gone
From going to movies to coming back at the break of dawn
I know, I know I was slow
I was late to class ‘most every day
Is this work and no play?
Just an average day for me

Repeat Chorus
Why can’t I just take a part
In everything from the start
I dunno why, just weird being me
I was fifteen when suddenly
I wasn’t that middle school girl anymore
I’m starting high school, a whole new world
For me, it’s still like you’re the little one in the crowd
Oh, why, why, why?

Chorus
Why can’t I learn everything?
From being cool to all those crazy things
Surrounding me, all though me
Why can’t I just take some pride
In my work and in my life?
Oh, why, why, why?

I’m not gonna know if you won’t understand
Me the way I am and nothing else
Oh, why, why, why?
I’m not gonna show if you don’t tell
That you know about me, and ring the bell
Just tell me

Fourteen

I wrote this around the same time that Taylor Swift’s Fifteen came out. 

Fourteen
05.24.09

It’s the last year at middle school
Some people, some people just wanna be cool
Just soy back and relax, ditching school
Not a smart move
I wanna get good grades, be good till the end
I wanna graduate and stay and be friends
A lot of things going on

Chorus
When you’re fourteen, you dunno what to do
When you’re fourteen, so many things to do in school
Theres graduation, school dances, cutting in line, disobeying
Taking the lead in everything, so it seems
There are so many things to worry about
Getting good grades to graduate
(sigh) Who am I?

I’ve got friends till the end
Some just faded away
School events, I don’t participate
Just the promotion party
What to wear?
Dressy casual.
I look in the closet
Rummaged through NY clothes, made a ruckus
I go shopping for clothes, go to the mall
To see if there is anything at all

Repeat Chorus

I’m an average teenager
Trying to find her my way in this crazy world
Trying my best to get good grades
Working hard, sometimes till eight
I don’t know how
Some people go out and rom about
And still do well in school
But when you’re fourteen, you don’t really know what to do
When you’re fourteen, don’t forget
That it mau be your last year with all your friends

I’ve learnt so much that I may explode
Taking tests, what a load

Chorus
When you’re fourteen, and you don’t know what to do
With your friends, guy problems
At fourteen
Practicing for graduation, so tiring
Just get it over with
Saying goodbye to all your friends
You won’t see them for a year
When you’re fourteen