Scars

Scars (06/14/11)
Jenny Chan

I know I'm not perfect
I'm not some model in some magazine
I know it's not worth it
To try to become someone else and not be me
We all have some things
We don't love about ourselves
But then we look into ourselves and realize
We wouldn't wanna be anybody eles

ChorusWe all have our scars
We've all been burnt
We all have our ways
We've all been hurt
Things are said that aren't meant
We've all been misled
That leaves us with
Our scars

With your friends around
Teasing you all day
Saying you aren't good enough for them
And that you should change your ways
Step back, relax, and enjoy yourself in your beautiful ways
If they are your friends, they wouldn't be so mean, you see?
Cause you're special in a different way

Repeat Chorus

When you look into a mirror
Finding someone really strange
Is it that you see
Strange has become the new perfect
You know you're perfect in many ways

Chorus 
We all have had our scars
We've all been hurt in some way
Our friends say things
That they don't want
We've all been hurt
We're left with our scars

We've all been broken until it hurts
That leaves us with our scars

Live My Dream

Live My Dream

By Jenny Chan

03.22.09

Why am I just an ordinary girl?

Living in a crazy world

Don’t wanna be the one

Who always is shy?

I don’t wanna be the one who’s not recognized

This ain't my day

I wanna go my own way

Chorus

I just wanna live my dream

Like it always seemed to be

Wanna rock out and stay, and party out

And never have a bedtime
Just wanna go my own way

And have my dream-day

Wanna be cool

Don't have to worry 'bout school

Don’t hafta be cool

Don’t wanna always stay in school

But it just so hard

To be a part of something I’ve always dreamt of

I’ve had enough!
I wanna be like Hannah

And live a double life

As a schoolgirl, but also in a differtnt world

Repeat Chorus

Don’t wanna be the girl always laughed at

Or the girl always being teased

Just wanna be a girl

Just an ordinary little girl

Wanna be everything that I can be

Don’t hafta be fabulous, don’t need much bling

Don’t really need everything

Don’t need to be cool to stay in school

Wanna be a girl...

Just an ordinary little girl

Wanna be everything I can be

Don’t hafta be fabulous

Don’t really need everything

But I can start

My own life

But don’t have to

Don’t need to be cool

To stay in school

Just like an ordinary person

Just a buncha friends

Is all you need

To keep you company

Chorus #2

Just wanna live dream

Cuz it’s always seemed to be

Just rock on and party on!

Just going my own ways

I've always wanted to be in theatre arts

And take a part

I’m always so shy

At home, I sing my heart out

But out there I don’t spout

I can't, but I wanna

I just big wannabe

A big wanna-be...

Chorus #2

I've always wanted to do this

Don’t wanna miss this I'm just letting my heart out

And SHOUT!

This is real ME.

I wrote this a long time ago (12?), so it's not that great. 

Free

Free

By Jenny Chan

01.25.09

I’m not made out of rubber

I'm not that flexible

Sometimes I suffer

From all the difficult times that I had

It drives me all mad

To think that I live in a cage

I just wanna be set free

Chorus

I wanna live by myself, on my own

Livin’ on my own

And wanna be free (be free)

Free (be free)

I want everything please

Just joking

Haha...

I wanna be free, and live on my won

Why is it always me?

Who doesn't get what they want

I wanna be famous

Live my dream, live by myself

Repeat Chorus

Why do I always hafta be followed?

Why do I hafta have someone to make sure I do work?

I'm under a lotta stress

My whole world's a mess

Chorus

And I just wanna be free, do anything I want

Wherever I want

Just being free

Makes me so much happier now

Now that I'm free

I had a chance

And so I took the chance

To start all over again

I may not be cool

Just gotta stay in school

To be free

I can express who I really am now!

Just For You

Just For You

Pretty in pink, she’s not who you think

You don’t like her, you like me

She’s just a puppet, you’re the puppeteer

Controlling her strings, trying even harder

She’s not your girl; I am your girl.

Look at me, wait can you even see?

Me with my glasses, or are you too blind to ask me?

Don’t know if you really like her

Or is she just a fake?

To make me break

Is that your aim?

Not sure if I’ll like you then

When you’re just playing pretend

When you’re done with her

Will you run back to me?

Is this reality?

Do I still want you?

Or are you just being cool?

I don’t know anymore

You’re just some stranger

A Moment Like This?

Well, I've been wanting to talk to him for FOREVER, and I finally did. Well, sorta. It was about homework though. It was about our Physics Lab that none of us understood how to do. So here's how it started:
I started by asking him if he had finished the lab yet. He said no, he was still in need of data from his friend. Then wait a couple minutes, he asks me if he could borrow my data. So then I gave it to him and that was it. Well, maybe I asked him a couple questions here and there and that was it. But you know the feeling when you talk to the guy you like for like five minutes? It just seems like the longest five minutes ever?
here's the convo anyways. if you thought i'd give out his name, you're wrong. i won't reveal his name. :D

The stuff in the parentheses are random thoughts I had.

me: hey sorry to bother u 
do you get how to do the physics lab?

him: im still waiting for my friends data

me:=.=

him: or an i just ur data for speed of sound lab (okay this line makes no sense. but since i'm asian, i understand.)
me: haha ok
but it might be werong
me and my firned still tryna figure out
anytways...
523.2 Hz --- 2.48 or 2.98 cm (cant read my writing)
392 Hz ---- 2.45 cm
him: ok
ty
me: mhm
perchance did u get the tube length?
lol bad english.. did u find the tube length (like did u record it)
him: nop
lol
me: fuuu
ok me assume its 20 again
can u tell me the percent error u got for the velocity when u et a chance? thkx
sorry again
for the refraction lab was ur index greater than 1?

him: ye (uhhh...)
both
greater than 1
me: ok just making sure
him: something like 1.4 ~~~
me: i dont need the number cuz i got confused...
him: ok
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I Don't Really Understand It

I never really understand why guys give girls chocolate or flowers and wear suits. Is that supposed to make them look better? Honestly, I don't really like guys in suits. I think it makes them look weird, in some exceptions. But, generally, yes. I like guys who wear plaid better. I think that they look so adorable in them! Why is it that guys look so cute when they wear plaid, when girls look weird? I like wearing plaid, just that it makes me look tacky. And they also look cute when they're carrying something, like a jacket? I saw him do it once, so I know. But when girls do it, they look kinda clumsy. And guys with accents! Oh my gosh! Dreamy! But girls with accents, mehh. Cody Simpson!! <3

So yeah...

But when girls, especially Asian girls do something cute like the typical Asian peace sign, they look cute. But when guys do it, mehh. Even Asian guys, mehh.

I Don't Get It

facts within a message are back!

i Just hate it when guys play games with yoU.
he Still likes me. i know iT. i can see iT when he looks at mE. he's stiLl in my chinese class. and she's in there too. and he still sneaks gLances at Me. so why doesn't he just brEak up with her? probably cause he likes her. but The way that i see it, He doesn't rEally like her That much. i can sense it. i dunno. i just can.
i puRposely sit where i tUrn my back to him cause i can't bear To see his lovey-dovey-ness with Her. i still like him too? i was kinda pulled into his trap of love and i can't get out. i wish i could.